Tribute to Mama Mary

My Mother, Mama Mary, left her burdened body behind on July 29th, 2024.

During the exact moments that the sun was returning to the position it was at the time of my birth, I was having a phone conversation with her in which she helped me realize and wrap my head around the fact that she wasn’t going to be here much longer.

She gave me a message for Bodhi and she gave me her parting wisdom (“keep doing what you’re already doing ~ following you heart.”). She gave me instructions on how she wanted her life to be Celebrated (by -not- having a funeral, but to have a party in her backyard and to play rock ’n’ roll). She let me know all the places she would like her ashes spread.

She energetically held me as I mourned her death while still on the phone with her.

We hung up and I fell to the floor and wailed until I was floating in an ocean of my tears alongside shards of my shattered heart.

I made the necessary arrangements for my unexpected departure and left for Park Rapids the next morning, my birthday July 22nd.

When I got to Park Rapids, I met her in the emergency room where she finally decided to go when I was still on my way up north.

Once her scans came back, we found out that masses had completely taken over her thoracic area. She was then air lifted to Fargo. I stopped quickly over to my parents home for a shower and a sandwich and then drove almost 2 more hours to meet her in Fargo, arriving shortly after her helicopter landed.

We were in the hospital in Fargo for 5 days and 4 nights. I got to be by her side as she went from her being pretty much her “full” self to, by the time we left Fargo, completely unresponsive. This final week with her was a priceless & precious gift. To anyone who has had to experience losing a loved one without getting to say goodbye, my heart genuinely breaks and go out to you.

I soaked in every second with her, sitting right next to her in her hospital bed, only letting go of her hand in order to communicate with the many branches of the shocked loved ones of my Mother’s Tree.

We shared many laughs with the doctors, nurses and hospital staff as she opened everyone’s hearts with her phenomenal sense of humor, the very last part of her personality to go…. I would overhear the nurses tell her how happy they were that they were assigned to her that day, and tell her things like, “Mary, you make being a nurse worth it.”

We got her home on a Friday night. Saturday and Sunday the front door became a revolving one of loved ones coming to sit by her side to pour their love over her once last time. Early Monday morning, before sunrise, she breathed her last breath. I was fully present with her and holding her hand, the -ONLY- way I could have handled it happening.

I was gifted 41 years with a woman who I found to be the best human, and my favorite human, on the planet. To me, she was Mother Mary (THE MOTHER MARY) in human form.
She cared deeply about the earth and the state of the human race. She was constantly inquiring within about how she could best show up to help and to serve.

Getting to be my Mother’s Daughter was the greatest gift, and getting to share her with all her daughters made me beyond happy.
You see, she had HUNDREDS of daughters. Constantly taking women under her wings to help them when they were going through tough times and needed a mother-figure, always helping them in a life-changing way. And I know my brother could say that same, about her adopting many sons.
She truly had a heart of Gold.

My mother was every good thing.
She was a magical woman.
She was eccentric.
She was intelligent.
She was forgiving.
She had all the Compassion in the world.
She was a Strong Woman.
She was BRAVE.
She was a rebel.
She was a free spirit.
She was a Cosmic Pioneer.
She was a Queen.

She was here for the Revolution, an Aquarian Woman thru and thru. And although an Aquarian is an Air Sign, they are called “The Water Bearers.”

And that’s exactly what she was, she carried with her~ The Water of Life, and she shared it Generously with the Thirsty.

She was my person. My best friend. My soulmate, an unbreakable bond of traveling lifetimes upon lifetimes together. She was my sister (it was her favorite thing when we would get asked if we were sisters so often when we were out and about in the world together).
But most importantly, she was My Mother. The Best of The Best. And as I told her often, but not often enough, “I am The Luckiest, to be Your Daughter.”
I look around and see her everywhere.
In every flower, stone, tree, in every bird every butterfly.

She taught me so much, of course, but one of the things I will take with me the strongest is to “Leave every place you go better than you found it.”

I will do my best, Mom.

My word for this year, 2024, was STRENGTH.
I just didn’t think this was how I was going to have to access it.
And so I must go on. But with you. as my Guardian Angel, as a Master Guide.

May I be your Living Legacy, carrying your Mama Mary Medicine with me everywhere I go.

I love you, Mom ❤️